Let's Have It Out...

I'm a girl, and I love love!

Yes, I know that St. Valentine's Day is overly commercialized and its sentimentality can seem contrived. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

But still, there's a season for everything, and I'm not going to be ashamed to admit that I like love songs and flowers and love letters. Or even that I sometimes like pink. But don't quote me on that--it's only certain shades in certain contexts.

Finally, I'm not going to be ashamed to make a playlist of some of my favorite love songs and post it. Teeheehee.

Edit: I removed the playlist so it doesn't keep playing everytime. Maybe I'll add the link next time.

In a moment of weakness, I proclaim, "I'm not good at anything!" I don't like doing things like exercise and knowing all the details about nutrition and economics and, who knows, politics. I'm poor at such 'earthly' details, and I feel disconnected from those who seem to be masters of it. My friend compares "well I'm not good at crafty things and I can't relate to the creative people."

Personally, I love and need beauty and acts of creation in my life. But, is creating the same as paying the bills? Is writing poetry the same as going on a jog? Is there really a need for beauty and creativity in the world the same way there is a need for science? Or is it just an excuse we creative minds make because we can't understand the other part. Are the two sides of our brains created equal?

A website about careers after graduation seems to only offer financial groups, big-selling co's (Coca-cola, Disney), consulting, or technical firms and companies who are hiring. What's there for me? Some secretarial job at such a company? Is my critical thinking only good for solving filing problems, and my my creativity only for color coordinating someone else's proposals?

It's a constant effort to conform my mind to the tasks required of me, and I always feel like I'm just barely doing ok at it. And I don't think there's much space in this world for equally acknowledging the things I like and enjoy and don't stink at.

Is there anyone out there who thinks creating, beauty, and love hold equal ground with the "necessary" things of life?